So yesterday was the Pasadena Half Marathon, 13.1 miles running around picturesque Pasadena, California, ending in the amazing, (and champion-feeling) Rose Bowl stadium. This one was a tough one for me. On most days, I feel I can step outside and run 13.1 and enjoy myself. But I did a lot of races last year, and then a painful torn gastroc calf in October, a speedy recovery right into the Malibu Half Marathon November 5th. My time that day was a let down for me even though with all better reasoning, I knew I had just healed my calf in two quick weeks! Anyhow, I felt burnt out. I didn’t run too much at any great length since. But I actually did enjoy myself yesterday! My hip flexors started to hurt (and still do honestly), my left knee, my left ankle, my right toes felt jammed in my shoe, and did I mention it was 38 degrees when we started and didn’t warm up much?! That did not help my untrained and un-warmed muscles! And despite having the worst time on my personal record, I feel a bit re-engergized to start back at it again! I can get out there on any given Sunday and run 13.1 with a ton of fun! (Believe me, I am completely aware that this only leaves me eight short weeks to run 26.2 on any given Sunday! The LA Marathon!)
I tend to read more than one book at a time. Perhaps I get bored easily. Perhaps it says something about my ability to focus. Anyway… I’m reading Meditations from the Mat. In my defense, it is more of a daily chapter type book, a verse or page per day, so I need another book. Today, I read a bit where a man was always thinking “What’s in it for me? What do I get out of this?” And the suggestion was a slight shift to “What can I give” How can I be of service?” I don’t think I suffer from this issue, but it’s still nice to reflect on situations, “How many I offer something?” Continue Reading ->
Yesterday was the Santa Monica Classic. It’s a 10K race and the first of the ConqurLA series leading up to the LA Marathon next March. It’s quick run but it was way too hot after spending the summer running in Denmark! Agh! But I enjoyed it because I run with my race and fitness friends, Bethany and Erik. They always make it a ton of fun! Continue Reading ->
Every once in a while, someone comments on how much I work out, or why I go to the gym. And really, I’m just like most people, I get busy, or find myself too bogged down with life and work to make it fit, and I get out of a good routine. But really, it’s my sanity and I make myself go, for reasons way beyond the physical. This little comparison is something I always think about, and after trying to describe it to a few friends, I thought I’d make one of my “Lists.” I hope it makes some sense…
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In the beginning, and many times after, you feel this is crazy… this was a mistake… this was not meant for you… no way… why did you take this on… you can’t do it… and then you just start… and you’re on your way. But it’s only mile/year one. 25.2 more to go…
Pace yourself. Breath deeply. Start slowly. Have an emotional release now and then. But find your own rhythm. Realize this is the long haul, not the sprint.
There are many many days, where you can’t even get out of bed. But you find a way, to put one foot down, then the other, one in front of the other, and you start moving.
There are many many hours, you feel you can’t do this. You seriously contemplate quitting. And as you almost do, you realize you have momentum and you can’t stop.
There are many many moments, where you want to throw up on the side of the road. And then you pick yourself up, clean yourself off, and you start on your way again.
There are many many times, when you get discouraged. You feel after ten steps forward, you seem to be making two backward. Or you hit the dreaded plateau and doubt that you can go any further. Then something amazing happens, and you go full speed ahead, once again.
There are many many days, you feel like this is the hardest thing ever, and you don’t know how you possibly did it yesterday. But then tomorrow comes, and you realize, this wasn’t hard at all, that’s actually not so bad, and you can undertake more than you ever have yet.
There are many moments, when you feel so desperately alone. In silence and in a world that not many share, all you hear is the sound of your feet hitting the pavement. And you realize that sound means you’re putting ground behind you. That means you’re making progress. And you see a goal nearing ahead of you. That’s a feeling close to euphoria.
So many many moments during it all, you feel the struggle, you push yourself, you’re at your limits, and you’re physically mentally emotionally exhausted and drained. And at the end, you realize your life has changed. You’re a different person, for the inexplicable incredible better. You realize you are stronger, tougher, smarter, and capable of so much more than you ever thought was possible. You are someone you never knew existed. After it all, you are on top of the world. That is a feeling of euphoria.
My name is Kristina Bant Jenkins. I am a photographer, writer, model, marathon- runner, devoted yogi, designer of awesome PacificSUP boards, Dane in California, creator of THISisAutism™, founder of Aut2bFit™, and… mom to THE coolest boy there is… who happens to have autism.
Here is where I talk about all of it.
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